i couldn't have a worse timing. but, there's nothing i can do now. always in my worst moments, when i really feel like shit, i watch "chasing amy". the main character is, in many ways, all that i always wanted to be: he writes and draws his own comic book, has his own cool hippy studio, works alongside his best friend... suddenly, he meets the girl that is "the epithome of everything he wants in a human being"... and, out of nothing, for such a meaningless reason, he manages to destroy it all.

as i said, in many ways, that's how i felt (and feel) about my life. when we look to the past, things always seem to be brighter in the light of the current wisdom. but we're not marty mcfly. i can take my delorean and go back to teach myself how to deal with the challenges of my life.

chasing amy teaches me that our lives are just about that: silly mistakes becoming huge disasters.